Birdie's Journal

Being in this country does makes you spoiled... When i was in the philippines, i used to have only thing that i need... a couple pair of shoes, 3 pair of jeans, shirts, purses etc.. Everyday i have my routine, make up take a shower and go to school.. After school hang out at the mall eating humbergers, ham&cheese sandwich or spaghetti. damn! i used to love those very much that i could eat them everyday! Come home at night and do the same routine again tomorrow. By friday night go clubbing with friends! hehehe...And on weekends i come home to the place where i grew up and hang out with my old friends eating green banana's with ginamos! hahaha green papaya's, santol, green mangoes and all the fruits you could think off! hehehe at night having a party with my gay friends! that was so fun!:) i couldn't ask for more! im living a free, content and happy life...
Now that im here... Im still happy with my new family but not in material things anymore... ive got everything that need but it seems not enough. those ham&cheese and humberger that i used to loved, i cant even swallow those anymore...those couple of pair of shoes i have a whole bunch of them that i couldn't even count in my hands.. more than a 100 pair of jeans that i dont even used. purses all over the place and a closet thats packed of all of my clothes... But im still not content of having all thoses things. i've gotten so spoiled that i dont even appreciate having all those things... I keep thinking about my neighbor who has 15 kids whose living in a one bedroom house and sleep in the same bedroom without a bed thinking where they gonna get a food to eat tomorrow...
I wanna change so bad but knowing that i could get them just one click on my laptop, its so tempting!!hehehe I gotta cut it off! from now on i limit my shopping habit to once a month hehehe cutting it off little by little... I miss those days, i miss myself, i miss my simpleness, i miss my naivitivity, i miss being careless overall i miss my innocent...